a beautiful mess

Monday, April 15, 2013

So black so blue little I can do so far from where I came into the web of love with you

It's so simple today like we always agreed
But really its not ... and so you've planted this seed
...watch me grow ....fondle my buds ... and you just wait for the big day
When they'll burst open with color full of beauty and pout and you can finally ....have me... your way...

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

It all makes sense now

Thursday, April 4, 2013

Why do we pick the hard life over the easy one, when it all leads to the same place?

The journey is more challenging ?

The people we meet along the way are more brilliant, and just as crazy with determination ?

The lows are where we see our true selves at work ?

The reality of what is meaningful is never tarnished ?

We expect nothing less than the amount of energy and work we put into life for the rest of our lives ?

When we love, we may not be there every minute of the day, but we will love you in the deepest way which is the only way we know, because we are so passionate about our dreams, we know no other
way ?

We know that once we make it to the top we will be ready for anything and not because we have the knowledge but because we've already been through it
all ?

We know what we want, just how to get it and we never want the process to end, we desire the unknown, the everyday road block and feed off of the curiosity to know more ?

We never want to stop learning ?

We are teachers at heart, and strive to understand how to be better every second of the day ?

We are the ones who don't understand the concept of unable to or couldn't possibly, we define ambition, determination and crazy ?

We give all we know until there is nothing left to share and then find out how to get more, there exists no end to a living mind ?

We can't help it ?

We are the dreamers and idea makers the doers and the who says I can't because I can and I will-ers.

Sunday, March 31, 2013

I feel like it's seldom that I find used connected to something right now. I don't want to look at anything because everything reminds me that I have no true connection to it, therefore to me,it is meaningless.

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

.. Don't ever let the world know you're struggling even if you are, you know who you are but it takes someone truly special to know that too...

It really is times like these where I wish desperately I could jump into a car and drive far away and watch your image melt into the distant landscape.

Monday, March 25, 2013

The time it takes

I've been out in this city by the bay long enough to build and start a dream. Doesn't mean I have to die in the process, just going to take a tad bit more effort to keep my spirit in mind .... Because the truth is when you do something fully .. It tends to take away from other areas in your life.. Quite possibly self expression for example. A current issue of mine; it's hard enough staying on schedule with the workload and goals I've committed everyday of my life to, but remembering that I'm still a crazy fuck who needs to be freed from er' cage More often than not is a separate challenge altogetha -- which might explain my reason for spending my sleep time on efforts to set free these thoughts that have been flying about the inner layers of my mind, fighting for air amongst my squished cerebral cortex in all its brilliant glory: disgusts me, the temperament of my wits, parading around over my sulking creative genes. Pity really; that in the moment I am released from my duties with school work I literally find calmness in my own insanity, that is for me of course my own creativity. But how to channel it, and when? For time is the most valuable asset to my life at this time, over anything else in this world. Too bad it is always ticking away, no matter how much sunlight I am up early enough to expend; it's always just short of a brilliant idea. Guess I will only flourish in my dreams.