Another New Year

Taken care of business every day I pray I can stay away from the thoughts that will sway my mind astray from the dreams I seek outliving my potential won't settle by any means that I'll have to give up
some of those things I love drugs that get me high are the standards she has for me the only thing keeping me afloat is the dream to accomplish the impossible is not a word I'll let leave my lips unstoppable is more like it when we kiss I can't control my thoughts only my body when we rock back and forth coming is the day when I'll be running forward fingertips pressing against all odds biting my nails did I Hurt you I paused the applause but I'm alone what's the cause for loneliness I ask when I'm up on top completed all tasks were what fueled my drive and you the fire that kept me alive i am not without you although i now have it all means nothing will ever replace you.

Shes all mind

I am going to miss you so

Chase your dreams

She left me for her dreams.... An I don't blame her

Love

Love and love and love some more

Time to grow up

Over Vietnamese sandwiches and some Apple juice, my sister and I discussed my not feeling like myself. The conversation went a little something like "You're 20, 21 in six months its time to grow up." And They're it was that damn firework went off like a bomb rattling my detrimental thoughts into inexistence. I had been mopping back and forth from sofa to the sofa chair waiting for something to go wrong but now, something has gone right! And just like the first feeling of liberation from heart break, I dont want to leave myself alone with myself long enough to fall back into the damn sofa chair. So without further ado, Keegan suggested something called an art collective, where, as a photo taker, I may make some like friends. Isn't funny how a simple conversation can lead you the realization that you live in one of the most artistically driven metropolitan cities in the world? Of course running home and opening my computer, doing about 5 minutes of research doesn't actually count for anything. What counts is brushing off the incredibly heavy feelings of uncertainty off of your left and right shoulders in order to begin the the hardest part which is commitment. Well you certainly can't commit to something you're unsure about, which is where you have to, as my med student, soccer coaching gorgeous girlfriend would say, suck it up man. Ambition, its the match that you personally, are going o have to light under your ass every day in order for you to succeed, in anything. And its not going to be pretty like Audrey Hepburn in breakfast at Tiffanys, you are not always going to get the man of your dreams to take care of you while you "figure it all out," which is why you must keep your balance, meaning one foot on the ground at all times, at least while you are chasing your dreams. No one is going to make you happy enough everyday so that you will be happy enough to keep going. That fire must come from within you, and YOU must be the one to light it daily. For the Next ten years of your life, you are going to have to grow up, and for the next decade after that and even after that one. Your never going to be able to make it stop or reverse of speed up or slow down. All of these days are numbered down to how is use you decide to make use of them. It is entirely your choice to exercise your heart and your mind efficiently enough to move forward balanced, and brave. With every ditch you are going to fall into and every heart ache that will consume you, stop, drop and roll while you are on fire, but take something from every single one of those burns and move on. The mistakes are what make you, not what break you.